you know what? sometimes it really hits me over the head that i threw away the best person that will ever belong to me and the only person who knows me fully.
and even though it was and is right, i know that no one will ever love me as well or treat me as well or be as good to me as that. and i don’t know what to make of it. except for that it would have been selfish of me to stay with someone when my feelings had changed and i had grown apart from her. and i deserve every unhappiness in the world because of that. because i broke the heart she had entrusted to me.
she is, and will continue to be, the best, most genuine, most caring person that i know. and i only hope that whoever is lucky enough to love her next treats her with the respect and love she deserves. and doesn’t break her heart. she taught me what it is to be loved, but i don’t know if i will ever find someone who loves me like she did. and i definitely know i don’t deserve it.